Day 7 of being warehoused in a hotel and back to the single parent grind. I feel guilty about how wasteful this all is. Wasteful in money, food, and all other resources. Not that they're mine, directly, but I just don't like to be wasteful. Indulgent, yes, I definitely enjoy indulging now and then but this isn't indulging anymore. It's just waste.
Oh, and that opportunity I had to interview for a job is completely gone as we're not going to make it in time for the interview. Once again, another sacrifice for the marriage and the family. I'm all sacrificed out to the point of having nothing left of myself to give up. Maybe I'll find the final shred of my freedom as a woman is taken from me once we move to a middle eastern country. Perhaps, I still have more to sacrifice and give up than I realize. Something to look forward to I guess.
So here we are, or here I am, again, left with a toddler, by myself in a slightly familiar place with no other stay-at-home mom friends, left to entertain a toddler all day by myself with nothing left to give, not even a positive attitude or frankly the energy to give a shit.
Why am I doing this again?? Oh yeah, because the alternative is guilt.
Thursday, October 28, 2010
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